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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Name : Neo Yizan, Sunny Age : 23 Location : Singapore Birthday : 8th June 1984 Zodiac Sign : Gemini Email : hollow_boi@hotmail.com |
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Hi all, must be quite shock to see me at home now right? (Look at the date of this entry and read my last post and you will understand)...Ya, I am enjoying my one day off at home now...
Will be booking in later at night by 2100 hours, sian man, can't wait to ORD sia, really no time for anything...All things I do have to rush...Why? Cause maybe it will make me not to think of you so much...
Gosh, hasn't been sleeing well since friday le, I think add up also don't have 24 hours ba...Well, Did nothing or went anywhere at all, just rotting at home for the whole day and waiting for the time to come for me to book in...
Life now sucks so much, got no friends with me, all busy their own stuff, go army ones go army, studying ones studying, working ones working...Haiz...Feeling kinda lonely somehow, I am a person who needs alot of attentions...
Hmmm, I miss my life before I went in the army so much, I have friends, family and most importantly...You...But now, it seems like I just lost it all...Friends busy with their stuff, family members also don't see them around much, then...Our relationship also like very jialat now...
I really don't have anywhere to go, anyone to turn to...Just feel so out of place everywhere I go...I really don't want to believe that our love is really so fragile...Can't take such test...I still can't get over all these...Its just like a time bomb set down inside my heart earlier and it just exploded not long ago like that...
Stress...I need love, I need company...But why isn't there anyone out there understands? I prayed, I begged...I did what I can...But it was all in vain...What can I do to direct your love, your heart and everything I had lost back?
Had been posting entries like this ever since the day I got enlisted...Is this a punishment? Or is it a test? Or maybe even a hint? to tell me that a am destined to be alone forever? No single soul will remember me? Remember the things I did...
All I got now is misery and more misery...Tell me what to do anyone? Is loving somebody really so hard? Is it why you gave up? What did I actually did to you? I tried correcting all the faults I did...But why can't you just accept them? Why can't I have a chance? Why can't I be the one who is there for you? Who listens to you? Whom shoulder you can rest your head on? Who you share your problems and happiness with? Who you hug and kiss? Who you show care and concern to? Who you love? who you cherish? who you trasure the moments together? Whom you appreciate each and everything I did for you? We are like a level up above strangers only now...you don't reply my message as frequently as you used to, you didn't pick up most of my calls, you don't message me anymore, not to say even call...Haha, do I really deserve all this? Just because I love you?
When will we start to know what is love? Freaking stressful now...Really don't feel like going on like this anymore...Just wish that there is a medicine that makes me forget each and every single thing I did, each and single person I know...Really going crazy soon le...Feel like a few more steps and I will go berserk...
Getting really short tempered and restless nowadays...How to carry on this kind of life?
Posted by Sunny @ 5:57 AM 
Hi all, must be quite shock to see me at home now right? (Look at the date of this entry and read my last post and you will understand)...Ya, I am enjoying my one day off at home now...
Will be booking in later at night by 2100 hours, sian man, can't wait to ORD sia, really no time for anything...All things I do have to rush...Why? Cause maybe it will make me not to think of you so much...
Gosh, hasn't been sleeing well since friday le, I think add up also don't have 24 hours ba...Well, Did nothing or went anywhere at all, just rotting at home for the whole day and waiting for the time to come for me to book in...
Life now sucks so much, got no friends with me, all busy their own stuff, go army ones go army, studying ones studying, working ones working...Haiz...Feeling kinda lonely somehow, I am a person who needs alot of attentions...
Hmmm, I miss my life before I went in the army so much, I have friends, family and most importantly...You...But now, it seems like I just lost it all...Friends busy with their stuff, family members also don't see them around much, then...Our relationship also like very jialat now...
I really don't have anywhere to go, anyone to turn to...Just feel so out of place everywhere I go...I really don't want to believe that our love is really so fragile...Can't take such test...I still can't get over all these...Its just like a time bomb set down inside my heart earlier and it just exploded not long ago like that...
Stress...I need love, I need company...But why isn't there anyone out there understands? I prayed, I begged...I did what I can...But it was all in vain...What can I do to direct your love, your heart and everything I had lost back?
Had been posting entries like this ever since the day I got enlisted...Is this a punishment? Or is it a test? Or maybe even a hint? to tell me that a am destined to be alone forever? No single soul will remember me? Remember the things I did...
All I got now is misery and more misery...Tell me what to do anyone? Is loving somebody really so hard? Is it why you gave up? What did I actually did to you? I tried correcting all the faults I did...But why can't you just accept them? Why can't I have a chance? Why can't I be the one who is there for you? Who listens to you? Whom shoulder you can rest your head on? Who you share your problems and happiness with? Who you hug and kiss? Who you show care and concern to? Who you love? who you cherish? who you trasure the moments together? Whom you appreciate each and everything I did for you? We are like a level up above strangers only now...you don't reply my message as frequently as you used to, you didn't pick up most of my calls, you don't message me anymore, not to say even call...Haha, do I really deserve all this? Just because I love you?
When will we start to know what is love? Freaking stressful now...Really don't feel like going on like this anymore...Just wish that there is a medicine that makes me forget each and every single thing I did, each and single person I know...Really going crazy soon le...Feel like a few more steps and I will go berserk...
Getting really short tempered and restless nowadays...How to carry on this kind of life?
Posted by Sunny @ 5:57 AM
